There are two main things on my mind lately. I need a job, and I have company coming!
1. I need a job.
A job is one of those things most people need, and for those that don't need to work, I don't understand your world and never will. I've been working since I was fifteen, and every time I haven't worked, I experience an almost immediate euphoria of time to myself followed by sudden panic and stress. I've quit jobs because bosses were jerks, grabbed young girls butts, said filthy things, and I couldn't stand being in the same room with them. I've been fired from jobs because I didn't quite fit in, maybe wasn't into their drugs and drinking. I sliced my thumb off the first day at a job, and after a drive to ER, driving with my hand up so the blood didn't pour, I was fired. I've resigned from jobs because bosses were control freaks, manipulative grouches, and I hated being in a basement covered in protective gear with the smell of mice. I have a long work history, with many stories, many odd and unusual jobs, but at the very core, I love working hard.
My favorite jobs, in all honesty, have been the ones that I toiled with sweat and labor. I enjoyed UPS because I grew strong at that job, and I moved around like a monkey. I loved the farm because I was free to work at a farmer's pace, steady and easy, with the fields, trees, animals, and sun. I loved watering the plants and seeing things come alive. I loved weeding the garden and thinking about life. I loved sweating in the greenhouses, carrying heavy pumpkins, and cleaning out the chicken house. I love satisfying physical labor. I've also done a ton of restaurant work. It's not my favorite, but I do like the walking, the people interactions and observations, and the freedom of the schedule. I can still see myself, in a funny vision, cleaning out the booths late at night while everyone is leaving the bar and I'm the closing restaurant server. There was so much work to do at the end of the night, and I remember how my sleep schedule was completely screwed. People don't understand why servers don't wake until noon, because they don't understand the work, the late shifts, and so forth. For a couple years, I woke up around noon, wrote in my journal, went for a hike, and then to work. I carried ridiculously heavy trays and broke more than my fair share of glasses, plates, etc., My favorite job of all was being a nanny to a six month to one year old baby. I loved caring for her so much. I'll never forget my last time rocking her to sleep, singing "Amazing Grace" and the tears streaming down my face. Nothing was more special to me than seeing her clap for the first time and notice the birds in the sky. I adored taking her out for walks, sitting on a blanket, reading stories, playing with pots and pans, taking her to library story times. It was the best gig ever, with awesome parents that trusted me in a way that I still find miraculous.
Now I am looking for work in a new city. I feel fortunate that in my five months here, I've managed to find the work that I've found. I came to Tucson for Arts for All, and even though that didn't work out, I worked a seasonal job at Hickory Farms, and I did light housekeeping and gardening for a lady once a week... and now two ladies. I also worked at a winter horse camp, but now I need a full time job. I'm looking. In the last week I've applied to over 20 jobs. I keep all options open. I don't care about how "meaningful" the job is right now- I need cash flow. I've applied to serving jobs, hotel jobs, some retail, caregiving, etc., etc., and I'm getting impatient. But today I managed to turn all those worries around. I started saying quietly, "I trust You" when the worries came, and this simple statement of faith quieted the noise. I trust You! I trust You, I trust that You will take care of me and that You have a plan!
2. Visitors
I have company coming! In ten days, TEN DAYS! my dear friend Naomi is coming for a visit. I love her to pieces. She's a caring, considerate friend, fun, blunt, artistic, and full of interests and hobbies. She spins, gardens, paints, knits, bakes, dances... What doesn't she do? I'm renting a car for the week and we're going to go to the Desert Museum, Bisbee, Sabino Canyon, etc., ! I'm so excited. Then, in Feb., my friend Amy is coming for a visit and she's dying to see the Tucson Rodeo! How fun will that be! Lastly, my pal Amanda is coming to town beginning of March. She also has some family here in Tucson, but I'm tickled pink to see her again. She's awesome! I'm really excited to play the role of host, already picking out sheets, blankets, candles, incense, snacks, etc., and thinking about the adventures and memories. It's so funny that this is the first time in my life anyone has come and stayed with me for any length of time, and here they come... all at once! I am so happy and excited!
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