Finding a Job

This has been a great week with plenty of sunshine and promise.  I am still looking for work, and I have re-focused myself on that alone.  I think it's easy for me to get side tracked into thinking about many things all at once- how I want to go to Togo, learn Spanish, take a cooking and hip hop class, quit working Sundays so I can finally go to church, etc., but I am pushing everything to the side.  Without dreams, the soul dies, and I can't pursue any dreams without a job. 

I am putting all my energy into finding a job, which is depleting and draining at times.  With every rejection, I wonder what's wrong with me in my ability, personality, appearance, etc., So I work at not taking things personally and applying to as many places as possible and hyper focusing on the ones that hold the most potential and possibility. 

I've done a pretty decent job at putting myself out there this week.  I search every day online, through Indeed and Craigslist and study my surroundings more closely.  My goal is to have a job by February.  I have found it super helpful to exercise more through this period of unemployment.  I have gone to zumba three times this week and taken a couple of long bike rides and frequent walk breaks.  It's a huge help in energy and motivation.  Yesterday I biked around 10 miles and was completely intoxicated by the sunshine.  The same is true of today.  There's a beautiful freedom in being unemployed- working hard at getting a job but enjoying a little beauty and play is crucial. 

Tomorrow is Sunday, and I will be back with the turtles.  Monday Naomi arrives, and I will push all this aside again to focus on enjoying my friend.  I think it will be a nice 2.5 day break from the stress of finding work.  Most of all, when I start to worry, I'm trying very hard to focus on saying, "I trust You" rather than dwelling in a spirit of worry.  God has always provided, and I know He will again.