Faith as a Crutch?

I have a friend that will occasionally point out to me that I seem to talk about the Bible more at certain times in my life.  It's felt like an implication of my flightiness, that I use my faith as a crutch in times of hardship or peril.  I tend to disagree.  I feel like it is because of these times that I am more open to receiving God's grace and love.  His nature doesn't change.  I'm broken enough to finally see that I am in desperate need of saving.  I am more aware of my true condition as a fragile human and God's beautiful consistency of character and faithfulness.  It is in times when I have felt abandoned that God has taken me by the hand, and it is in times of feeling alone that I have realized He is sufficient and everything I need. 

I'm feeling so much worry.  I worry that I won't find work.  I worry that I won't fit in with work.  I worry that I won't find a job that I like and will be suffering through another miserable job.  I worry about paying my bills and about getting from point A to point B.  There is worry in my heart. 

I am spending time with a dear friend for a couple days, and my mind is relieved with some distraction from these thoughts.  Still, they are there, and I still think, "Why is no employer calling me?"  I know things take time, but I want to be working and feeling good about myself.   I spend renewed time in His Word because that's where I find peace, encouragement and hope.  I find challenges to grow rich in God and not in ambition or things.  I'm reminded of His hand on my life.  The Word of God is my anchor, and I cherish the Word I can receive from it each time I open.  A word from God? What a gift. 

I am choosing a path that is not widely understood or acceptable, but I want to do right and be pure.  I want to live as if life matters and every person is valuable and we all have something to offer the world.  I want to learn how to love like Jesus and walk in His way a little more.  I want my heart that battles worry and insecurity to rest in the nature of God, the One who understands all things.