Corona Light

Today I tried to be ultra productive.  I put on my striped dress, threw my walking shoes into my purse and took off on a mission.
And many hours later, I came home, after walking in circles around a town I'm just getting acquainted, and I developed something called a let down.  I have been doing some serious overthinking... all day.  I have been waiting to speak to managers with boldness, earnestness, zeal, and it's felt like just another robotic reply.  I've hit up fabric shops, sun tanners, sandwich makers, fitness centers, restaurant managers, Target workers, and I've called Starbucks ladies and unemployment centers... Oh my heavens.  And then I've researched service organizations, emailed more people for references, and I've walked roads where trucks honked at me.  This is the only time I desperately wish I had a car, to avoid the honks of men that notice a faint glimpse of someone with curves.  And then I think of my pocket book... I'm running on empty.  Should I have bought that last coffee?
And then I hear from the ONE person that replies from all my applications, and this person is in Seattle at my favorite little coffee house, Diva Espresso.  She wants me to come in for an interview tomorrow.  And then I think about moving back to Seattle for the summer, emailing a possibility, shuffling out more details, and it feels like a gigantic whirlwind.  Vancouver- Seattle.  Summer- Fall.  Jesuits- Arts for All- Boys Hope, Girls Hope.
I lay down to try to calm my mind, but it can't be calmed.  So I sit down in M's sweet little kitchen, at the small table where I can look out at the birds and vibrant pink bushes with daffodils poking in between, and I bring my Bible close beside me, and I sip a Corona Light with abandon.  I look up the verse I found this morning, the verse I felt the need to read again and again, the verse I felt might carry me for a long time.... And I realized it is the verse I need right now.  I need this verse because I am in a period of unrest, unsettled, unsure, a sojourner, a traveler, a roaming child of God...
"Behold, I am with you and will keep you wherever you go, and will bring you back to this land.  For I will not leave you until I have done what I promised you."  (Genesis 28:15)
My heart is holding on to this- God will keep me wherever I go, He will bring me back to Himself, He will not leave me, and His promises remain.  He is keeping me wherever I go.  Yes, I will say this again and again...