Life has presented various challenges to me lately- changes bring forth good things, but sometimes they are also challenging. I don't feel like going into detail, except to say that my heart has felt a nice cup full of disappointment in the last few weeks.
I love to make food, even for myself. I recently made two big pots of minestrone and ate it consistently for nearly two weeks with fresh shaved parmesan on top. I made 24 pumpkin chocolate chip muffins and froze them as well, in little zip-lock bags for my convenience... a delicious breakfast or sweet snack.
But I'm not sure I've been eating all that much lately. It's not that I'm trying to starve myself, but my schedule has been erratic and my soul has been a little stressed. I've been making coffee, grabbing polar pops, and making decent smoothies with a swipe of peanut butter. I've been living on this diet- smoothies, coffee, polar pops, and frequent snacks of sausage, cheese, and mini melt away mints.
My lethargy reached an all time high yesterday. I couldn't get any stamina in me to bicycle to Trader Joe's as I had planned. I went to bed and slept, and then I woke up on Saturday and slept till past noon. What the heck is going on with me?
Maybe I am depressed... there certainly have been plenty of depressing things in my life recently, and the birthday and Christmas on top of it, but I am not sure I am.
I woke up at noon craving a burger in the most intense way, and I started thinking about a meal with longing. When was the last time I had a MEAL?
So I scurried on the bus and walked to the In and Out Burger joint and got myself a hamburger with onions, French fires with ketchup, and I thought it was incredibly delicious, like a baby having its first drip of Mother's milk.
And I didn't want to sample sausage at work, and I had a little more energy to stand and do my job. I also had energy to come home and clean a little and feel a little more peppy.
I guess I just need to remember to eat.
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